pictures time!!

My beloved grand aunt, she took care of me ever since i was 1month.. so dat's y i love her the most!!


My lil' gang.. beside me is my sis..

In malaysia.. fairy windmail..

see them?? they are my precious darlings..

soloist~~ sandra!! pretty?? hahas.. don mind me... im always dat thick skin..

gugugaga!!

Today's the last day of my work. phew! can get some rest and im on the way to finding jobs again.. practically, i wanna do lotsa jobs to earn lots of money.. to prove to mum dat only by working den u'll get money, oso, i wanna tell her dat i have the ability to earn a living by my ownself NOW. bUT, the money dat i earn.. 3/4 of it will be put in my bank. to thicken up the volume of the $$ that previously my mum have been using.. see guys?? the money dat my mum is using is from my bank account! U noe why now i just hate her and everyhthing that she do. Well, this blog has all along been my online diary.. so.. its all my true feelings dat i've typed out. so what if i hate to the core. She's still my mum. i've come to learn dat hatered will only bring more hatered.. i'd rather get used to it den to be bothered by it.

okay.. dats e big chunk of my totally 'u don wanna have family life'.. hahas! the happy thing is i got a new phone today.. second hand to be exact.. it is still relatively new, in good condition.. passed down by my niece! =) ok.. get back later!!

munching ice!

I'm back.


Finally after 4 tiring and fucked up days. Yah... real fucked up. Especially yesterday!! well.. actually it's all about my mum again ..back to her 'mental' again.. she's jobless!! she's not being retrenched or anything.. she resigned!! and u know why she did dat?? just bcos she finds dat wat she's doing in her workplace is MEANINGLESS!

i mean... why do u care whether it is meaningful or anything.. but at least it is not something whr u do illegally or betray ur dignity or stuffs.. its just being a housekeeper!! hey.. ppl here lyk me.. work hard because i noe by working den i will get $$,, my own hard earned $$. okay.. so now im typing and munching ice at the same time.. hoping that if any of the gods' up there can use their heavenly labtop n look through my blog... and understand how i really feel. cos when my mum's jobless n short of cash.. she'll start screamimg and vent all her frustration on us.. as if we have no human rights. This will be a tym where my dad will start coming home late.. lyk 11 plus or 12 plus, bcos he too.. can't stand my mother.

so ppl.. this is what my family life is. so when i tell u dat i don feel lyk going home.. u noe what i mean.

but anyway, pics of me and my sista. this was in malaysia.. im in that glasses. haa! i love those glasses..






feel so lucky.. at least i have my lil' sis with me.

BLOOGIES UPDATIES!!

bleah bleah,, Pretty sandra is back. oww!! thick skin me. haa!! okies. i was in malaysia for 3 whole nights and 4 days.. had a total lotsa of fun there.. simply just shop, eat,shop, sleep?? yeah.. and not forgetting the wedding dinner lahx.If u say vivocity is big.. den i'll not agree. Cos over thr the shopping complex are 2X bigger?? yah ard there. Basically, when i was there.. i missed out Alan's and gen's birthday,, hahas. i didnt get presents for them too. OHH!! i just remembered.. i forgotten Jason's present too. hahas. Jason if u read this.. eh.. but don worry ,i'll get in s'pore den..

Alright, x'mas is coming. My birthday. i don noe if ppl actually enjoy x'mas.. but i totally love it. but.. i'll get older each x'mas. Can i say that im special??? hmmm.. maybe not that special.. but.. How many ppl on earth can actually have birthday's on x'mas?? hehes! well.. i just love 25 December. Hey Santa claus!!.. if u read my blog.. hehes. can i have my wish come true??

Totally exhausted!

Wow! started working for only lyk 4 days and im totally exhausted ready. hehes. but had a fun time in the airport though, get to experience the working life out there... total sales for the 4 days is only like 1000$$ plus plus. Not very good, our sales target is 3000$$ by the 18th of dec cos thats the last day of work.. heh. but i met all kinds of ppl out there and finally know the hard work it takes to earn every cent!

Job day!!

Today was the first day of work. hahas. yeah.. work. well.. basically im working as a sales promoter for SKll. didnt actually notice much about this product previously but today had a training with rachel, the co-ordinater, and realise the wonders that the products have. First day of work was a totally new experience. But the old sales ladies are some kinda bitchy.. hahas. i don give a damn about them anyway had my sales done to about $300++ today.. ha! not bad right. It's bought from a guy.. for his girlfriend. AWWw!! so sweet right. How i wish there's a guy who treat this well to me. Eh... but first things first, he must have all the conditions that i've listed in my previous entry. And i wonder if there would be a day if i really find a boyfriend.

Hmm.. maybe u can say that im totally obsessed with the show. wang zi bian qing wa. yah, that's right. im watching the show over again.. addicted to it now.Totally love it.
Heh heh heh. crazy over dat male lead.
i wish my husband was lyk him( in future)!! Perhaps, i will consider getting married if the perfect guy really exist on earth.
i wan him to be..:

• at least 180cm tall, 70kg.
• broad shoulders!!
• long legs.
• ABS!!!
• long fingers
• Rich!!

THis is just the outside of him dat i want, inside is the one dat totally counts. As long as he's not unfaithful and he must be responsible and really rich!! ..erm.. is this some sort of lyk expectations of my future to be husband?? hehes. yah. i think so. i believe that a man should possess this kind of inner beauty inside him, so looks don't really needa count. Talking about it, sometimes i really wish for a hand to be twice my hand with long and slender fingrs to hold on to my hand.. BTW.. my birthday's coming.. my birthday wish?? can i have a guy with all that i listed above?? hehes. if santa claus read my blog den maybe my wish will come true!

I'm really really sure now about my feelings. At least i can confirm now that i am free from all those love love stuffs. (For the time being...) right now, i just wanna find my job and start working!! SO I WONT STAY AT HOME, SLACK AND GROW FAT!! ermm..
and im afctually on a diet.. hahas.
But 1/2 hour ago i just ate a stick of ice-cream.. dat's when temptations come.. have to conquere them all!!!!! hahas. okay.. i'lll be back later.. maybe another 10 hours later to update more..
off to exercising now!!

thinking..

im actually watching a korean show now. sad one indeed. life can be so fragile.. i guess i know why god created dis emotion inside us called 'treasure'. i know how is it to lose someone u love to another world,, it hurts. but. within the times when they were still ard me. i treasured every second with them.. cos i noe dat at least when their gone, it won hurt so much.. well.. i don noe what got me to type all these.. i guess its the show and oso wat i read onlline just now.. someone's life journal. its not a he, but a she which i've read, close frens to say??
ok.. actually the thing goes lyk dis.

some point of tym last yr, i fallen for him. i thot e feelings wouldnt last. but till now.. its still in my heart. we were together for a short while.. and.. i was really happy to be with him. with all my heart, its only him. but oso.. at some point dis year i got to noe dat she oso has feelings for him>> it really strucked me. well.. so now, we'r not together anymore..even though still have feelings.. but i noe dat we could never be together again. right now, what i really hope dat is, if u 2 have feelings for each other, go ahead. u mat never noe dat it may last forever. with all my heart,.. dat's wat i truely wish for. i've let go.. and i know.. someone awaits me out thr.

i will be happy.

Exams are finally over!!! hahas. all over, right now, it's really e time to slack and have fun!

There's really something dirty hanging on out there.. it's getting kinda eeerie ready. But i have faith with myself,with god. I believe that things will turn out fine. It will go away.. yeah, but.. don harm it or do anything to it, it won't hurt you.
shall continue, actually was at xing's hse when i wrote e first half.. well.. was actually thinking now what and how will life be from tmr onwards. Getting a job with jas and maybe xing tmr at the changi airport, they have a job fair or stuffs lyk dat.
okay.. so.. i was actually looking through somebody's blog just now.. and actually know how *** life actually was. im actually wondering who dat person *** was missing.. is it him???

now.. more about my relationships update.. do i actually still like him?? yeah.. i actually still do.. afterall.. i once loved him. But i guess all these takes time. Really long time i guess. the thoughts of him just wouln't fade,, i think i know now what it really takes to miss someone badly. Really really badly. i know now dat some stuffs are going on with him... i silently hope dat he will really really be fine. i will pray. whats all for love thou?? i donnoe either.. but all these are parts and parcels of what we'r suppose to go through..

ok. todays math paper 2. i donnoe wat e hell im doing, cos ppl ard me are busy preparing when im actually here doodling with e com.. but well anyway, just hope i"ll do well for all of e papers.
well.. u noe. sometimes somethings are better of being left unknown den to noe it. i am actually wondering wat is going on btwn u guys.. but i somehow wish i don wanna noe anything.. phew!! maybe, things shld be it this way.. i wont noe anything den.. haa! yah,, it'll be better.. hehes. guess there's not much to update today just noting down somw of me feelings.. all e best ppl!! =)

wish me good luck!

ART PAPER'S TODAY!!

haa!! hope thins will turn out fine today. PHew!! struggling for the past few days and its finally done.
hope i'll finish it in time. 3 hours. it should be enough..

oohho..
didnt talk to mum for 2 whole days. i just really feel so sick! sick of all these..
thought dat maybe things will finally turn good after so many lessons.. but eventually.. it didnt. i don wanna care so much ready. i just wanna live my own life.

!!!

this is actually my art paper 2 prep work.. and dis only the first page.. 4 more to go..

its all about leaf and stems. im doing folaige.

guess whats this word??? haa! its NEWMEN!!! taken from jason's bag ytd after tuition...

ITs GONG again!!

• new slippers!! bought dis pair with jason. hehes. my feet were actually swollen from wearing my sis shoes.. so its bought. at my grandma's place..
  
• this is my new ezlink!! heh. previous one was spoilt.. so got it changed. its good anyway.. somethings must change. u will get something else better..
  
  
  
• taken by jason. At vivocity's long john.. saw dat plate of fries thr??? its mine.. he thinks dis pic shld be up.. so.. now its up!!

finally.. its me!!

fullest today!!

• someone whom u love and trust the most, may be the one who in the end hurts and make you cry the most.. living in a world without love makes u lovely but living in a world of being stab by someone u love, is unbearable loneliness..
• trust someone with a heeart of gold not a heart without soul. love like u've never love before, not love only if u want to. Remember all dat u've done today, for it becomes ur history tmr..

its how u live ur life today den it will lead u to the unknown tomorrow..

phew!! just came back from vivocity. its freaking big!! i rch thr ard 11plus n walk till lyk 4plus.. guess wat?? i have only completed fully walking 1 and half level.. and i'll be going back tmr to continue the rest.. total 3 levels. woah! its really big sia. u can even get lost while finding the toilet.. u'll walk one big round while actually e toilet is just behind you.. SEE!! its dat big. haa! but the floorings nice.. shines and sparkles** hehes. if u have e time.. don mind going thr to shop. its great.

just noting down some feelings..

• If u love someone, put their name in a circle not a heart. A heart brks but a circle goes on forever.

There are 3 grt things in a world:

• the first thing is for u to love someone
• the second thing is for someone to love u back
• the third greatest thing is for the first and second thing to happen at e same time...

Its hard to pretend u love someone if u don't, but its harder to pretend u don't love someone if u do..

• If u really love something, set it free. If it comes back its urs, if it doesn't, it wasnt meant to be..

When u love someone, and u love them with ur whole heart, it never dissapears when ur apart. And when u love someone and u've done all dat u could, u set them free, and if dat love was true... when u love someone, it will all comeback to you.

• i cried today not because i missed u or even wanted u back but bcos i finally realise dat im gonna be alright without you!!

Forget the times u walked by, forget the times u've made me cry. Forget the time u held my hand, forget the sweet things if i can. i can no longer pretend, i have to remember that now.. u'r just a friend.

• Real tears are not those dat fall from e eye and cover the face, but those dat fall from e heart and covers e soul.

Never say goodbye when u still wanna try; never give up when u feel u can take it;never say u no longer love the person when u cant let go..

well.. wat got me to write these stuffs?? hee. i was just listening to some songs and some things came flashing through my mind.. so it got me to type out all these.. so ppl.. aFTer reading all these thing, think about ur feelings rite now. do u really love dat person??? if u do.. treasure them.. don let go. cos wats in ur hands is happiness.. if u let it go.. u may never get it back again.

practical...

oohh.. today's prac was screwed!! haa! donnoe wat e hell im doing.. but.. it's all over thou.. so just move on. well, noe in emily's hse.. told her alot of things thou.. and realise some things i just couldnt forget. really really wish dat sometyms the sun and moon dosnt rised and set dat fast. but its all life.. its just how r u going to live it! and so.. i tell myself to live it to e fullest.. never ever get sad. if only u stay strong.. nothing in life can ever make u sad. dis is wat im telling myself now. i will stay strong.. never ever will i be beaten down of obstacles in my life. so ppl.. always move on.. never stay back. sometyms things are better out thr. =)

how i wish it haven ended so fast..

its just a grad ceremony,miss out e grad nite. how i wish we have 1. receive a box of curry puffs thou.. and a badge. oh well..just admit dat my sch's budget. =) everyone came back today.. saw my frens whom i last seen ever since their n'level over.. still e same bahx.. hees. a video was made from e year 2004 to now.. haa! i must say dat e video's pretty memorable. many fond memories came flashing through my mind once again.. its just so wonderful to see all dat pics .. really miss those happy times with my friends.. esp last years sec 3H and my very own dance,, oohh,, how time really flies. how i wish we have a piggy bank to save time instead.. den days will not pass by so fast.. and at least we get to treasure all these things for alittle longer.. thanks for the ppl who acc me through my sec sch yrs.. my friends and all.. everything and everyone.. u guys just rock my life, and i love u guys more den anything.

Korea wave!!

Korean wave is up!!
hahas.. im definitely some1 who will go crazy over some shows..
hehes. Some shows are really nice.. now PRINCESS HOURS's showing..
just finish e whole series yesterday.. its super sweeeeeeeet!! just loveit.. right now, princess hours is e best korean series..
some of my favourite scences..

haa!=) should watch it. strongly encouraged. part 2 is coming up, but main characters all changed.so, maybe the first series is better.hehes.. just love it!!

Its the new me now..

the starting of my blog. the new me starts today.. a stronger, better or maybe... a girl ready to believe in love once again.=) well..life is just a one way ticket.. no ticket back. so, why not do just wat u wanna do.. and say wat u always wanted to.. cos so often we regret for things we haven't done and have not said.. So.. DO it now! SAY it now! =) always believe in wat u do..believe in yourself..