sometmes i wish that i could just break down and cry. I've got too much that i cannot say. Falling for you is just too much for me.

Its all in a day's pics.

Insights: Best friends are people whom i hope will stay with me all my life.

I know some time things don't always go right, but i hope u'll understand. Because if even you don't understand, i really don't know who else can i open my heart to.

Sometimes when i need you, i really really do. And u know i'll always love you.




















I really think i expect too much on some things which i really dont need to care about. I don't know why, im just stuck. I can't get out.

The 'so-me' post.

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?

Saying something and wishing you hadn't?,

or Saying nothing and wishing you had? ( This is so me)

I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.

Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them.

If you do, they might break your heart...if you don't, you might break theirs.

Have u ever decided not 2 become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?

Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't.

You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own........when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you?

Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.

Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?

We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us.

But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger..

Pretending not to like someone isn't easy.
But the more u pretend, the more u cant pretend.
Understand?? wooh, contradiction.

Never under-estimate the feeling that ur feeling inside right now. It will over power you one day and leave you bleeding through.

Arrgh!!.. Controlling..

Insights: i dont want things to get out of hand.

you know how the feeling's like? Its like.. i want so much to touch you but i CANT! so.. maybe i've to keep myself under some 'control myself' - chant. hahas. to keep things under control.

I am a Nurse. =))

I have lots to say.

Insights: I just wanna get drunk.

Drown me with alcohol. Because that's when i can say things which i've kept for soo long. At least i can say it unknowingly, at least all those that i'll say are all true to my heart, all true to you..

I miss you when something good happens to me,because you're the one I wanna share it with 1st.

I miss you when something bad happens,because you make everything *better*.

I miss you when I cry,because you kiss my tears away.

I miss you when I'm laughing,because you make my laughter grow.

I miss you through all those times..But I miss you the most when I'm lying in bed at night thinking about you,because before I always knew someway, somehow...

You were thinking of me too...

Some day you'll see that you made a mistake,

By the time you wake up.. it'll be too late.

Cause I will have moved on and found someone new,

Someone who loves me the way I used to love you..

For every minute you're angry, you lose 60 seconds of happiness.

Im emoing again. ya, i know i shouldn't, but its not that i want!
Today was totally messy.

First, i dropped my phone. and the screen crack. lame shit.

next, a change of ward cause there's this cdtoxin virus passing around. contact precaution! Poor myself and the morning girls. We only know that at 3pm sharp! That's the end of our shift. WE don't even know if we've contacted any of the virus. signs and symptoms must be noted!

Then, this stupid nail pierce my thigh! bleeding.

爱上一个不可能会爱我的人.

This is what kept me thinking through the whole day, today. : So, i do not have a boyfriend!
From yesterday i guess, haas. I dont know why it suddenly popped out, but since it already popped out.. i shall spend some time thinking about it..
till i've thought about it, i shall stop this subject here. hees. =))

Loads of pics.

All pictures of my weekends!

1) was at marina with baby, for lunch!
2) was at SPOP, singapore indoor stadium. we were there because of free tickets. Thanks to my cousin.
3) never to forget the bunch of kids, ( my cousin and his classmates!)














Elva. Those guys MELTED when she sang " honey, honey, honey"!


and we left immediately after she sang. haas. She's the main purpose why we went.


and then of course, JJ. my all time favourite. hahas.
ahem! sharon~~ =))




The after event pics.










and the bunch of kids. =))

Love is when someone hurts you. And you get so mad but you don't yell at him because you know it would hurt his feelings.

Love is what makes you smile when you're tired.

Love is letting him have the last bite of chocolate.

Love is doing everything for him, when u've never done everything before.

Home pics.

Insights: Finally got household pics to upload.


TaaDaa! My new baby girl. hees. She's 5 months old, soo small that sometimes i step on her accidently. oopps.


SO cute rights. But she's naughty. She pees on the carpet.


Then, my baobeis'!


Tell you, he's super comfortable to lie on. haas. oohh, comfortable!


This is one skinny boy. =))..


Mr big face!


" Hey! Whatcha looking at?!"


Sleeping 'beauty'.


emm, ya. I got sunburn. My shoulders and my nose.

女生什么时候最美?

Scorching hot. i'm burnt!

Insights: Went swimming today.

Like finally managed to go!! oohhh.. =)) and finally got myself into a bikini. ~wee-wu-wee~!! haas.

And the whole process of going to swim was super funny. Ok, here it goes:
1) We (baby and i) went to tamp swimming complex first. Wanted to swim there but then no body there was wearing a bikini!

2) and so, we actually wanted to leave.

3) On the way out, we saw an uncle wearing the same colour of swimming trunks as my bikini, mine was bright orange in colour!

4) FINALLY, managed to swim then. At pasir ris instead! =))

I got tanned thou, not much of getting darker. But i got brown- ner! hees. Jason got a lil' darker too.

next, we headed down to TAKA, to help jason's mum look for something. at the same time, met Jasmine for a lil' while. We were actually quite sian already, but still went to look for TAKA mum. Had some talk with her. =))

Then, then, we headed home. Practically, the day ended sian-ly. I think because of too much UVrays already or either its the PMS( post menstrual syndrome) which hit me. I don't know la.
anyway, nice tan i got today. !! loveit.

Insights: First day of attachment = tiring.

Holidays are over. 3 weeks just went bye bye and fly fly.
Have to get used to the working body clock once again. haas. Oh well, that's attachment.
Learn, learn and drain out!

I need pictures.

Insights: This is the 3rd post of the day.

Too many to type actually. Thanks galvin, i like the old name better. ;)

Im thinking of getting a bond. yeah, im serious.

But im not sure of which hospital to get my bond at. KKH, SGH, CGH, AH? arh, i dont know.
Cause i figured out that it'll be too early for an 18 year old to be a flight crew. Meanwhile, i can save money. haas. just in case next time if i really get to fly oftenly then i'll have the $$ to shop. =))

So at a ripe old age of 21, i'll be just nice to be one. of course, that's when i've served finish the 3 yr bond ready.
hahas. More time to build up my complexion then!

Capricon.

YOUR BIRTHDAY: 25 December (CAPRICORN)
Your personal ruling planets are Saturn and Neptune.

You are ruled by the mythical God, Neptune, which describes your nature most adequately.
Just like the vast ocean you are restless, moody and fond of change and travel.
You love the water and places connected with the sea. You possess unusual and original ideas on religion and philosophy.

It means your compassion has risen to sublime heights and you will do anything for a person in need. In this respect, you must learn to balance your own needs lest you become a victim of the people you are trying to help.You have strong psychic abilities that relate to the water element and you can use this talent, not only to your own advantage, but helping others as well.

All of the healing and helping professions are well suited to your nature.Your main lessons are to learn to take better care of your material life so as to enjoy your future fully.

Capricorns don’t believe that sex needs be a fireworks display every night.
You’re more interested in having a stable and supportive relationship—a partner who is there for you when you need them, and who you can support when they need you.

All Capricorns can find all-round happiness with Capricorns born between 22 December and 1 January, but they are probably best suited to Capricorns born between 2 January and 10 January. The influence of Saturn and Venus means affection will grow, and there is a natural affinity.

Capricorns born between 11 January and 20 January have oodles of charm that will make you feel happy and relaxed. They will stimulate you mentally: their co-ruling planet, Mercury, makes them quick-witted, intelligent and highly communicative. Sometimes you’ll wonder whether they are really Capricorns, because they talk so much!

Im glad that most of my closed ones around me are Caps. I love Caps.

send off!

Insights: i gave daddy a hug.



Daddy just left for Abu Dabhi. Woohoo. hahas. Ok, i'll miss him.



Next, attachment's just tomorrow. Hope it'll be fine.. Going back to the same old ward just make me familiar with everything!! I love it. =))

Dinner day.

Insights: Had dinner today at parkway. In one of the Indonesia restuarant. The food was superd- delicious. It was aunts treat. =))


They actually have a palm tree inside their restuarant. super cute.


Meal time!




and of course, that's me. =))


Daddy! Take 1.


Take 2.


Take 3.


Black top, 3 quards jeans, havanas and a sling bag. I like it casual.


yeah. Daddy's simply the best.


Skin care stuffs. They're from shishedo. Small bottle thou. cause their samples.
haas.


Mu lunch. Its actually some Japan Udon mee.


Jason's prezzie from thailand. Nice ar? =))


and finally, My super CHI-NA dress. hahas.