Do we look like real Bro's and Sis? Hmmm, sometimes i think we look like u noe.

small picture of Jason>
Photographer: Sandra ♥


Hit me in the eye.*BoxBox* naninanipoopoo!!~

Pretty Lady~!


Meme'' at Billy Bombers, Photographer: Jason Tan>


`Red nails` see them? These nails are mine. Their handmade, by me!

'A trip to the bird park'

image in the tank.


At home, dressing. Haa!!

with my grandaunt'

nice?? i like the feathers, a very nice pink.

Guess where are we?? (3/19/07)

we're at bedok clinic, x-ray centre.
We had our health checkup. 1st was urine test, next, blood pressure test, followed by blood test,the doc pierce a needle in our arm and drew out 50 ml which is equal to almost the length of your ring finger and last of all, height and weight.. hees. i lost 1 kg. Hope all the check up's will be alright and we're off to Np for our nursing!!

lil' thoughts:
一個從來沒有犯錯的人往往也是不可能把事情做好的人﹗”

People who usually don't make mistakes, may not always be the ones who do things right.

After so many things which happen all along the years of being a teenager, the years all along till im 16.. i've come to accept all that i am.
I'm not like other typical girls out there;

1. I don't have long and slim legs, don't have nice arms, dont have small waist; but one thing for sure, i do have the assests.
2. I don't have big and shiny eyes that sparkle, nor a small and pretty face, but i have 2 dimples where most girls get envious off.
3. I don't starve myself to have a skinny frame because i'll only look flat in clothings.

4.I dont have snow white skin, tan skin may suit me better.

But, like all other girls out there, im afraid of all that will leave me with a broken heart..

I learn to see myself through these years, i am who i am.. and one very day i will meet a guy who loves me for who am i. See?? If you see things in another way, you wont have to be guilty of what you'r not. See things in another perspective.. u'll find that life is not as difficult and colourless as what u may think.. its just how you go about living it. =))

Days and days after, finally today, im back here again to blog. Whats up for the past few days?? Ohh well, same old thing.. Yesterday, my mother went crazy again. So yeah, detail??Guess u guys more or less know. Bad things never happen for long, today i just got a Digital cam!! Finally i have my very own Cam. Honestly, i was desperate to get things that i never have when i wasnt financially stable yet, but now since i am.. its time to get things i want! But, u know.. gotta scolding from mummy.. thats expected.But who cares!! it's not a very good brand. PANTEX. It's only $$199!! So why not just get it!! Haa!! Another thing.. i cut my hair!! Shorter then before.. something like S.H.E's Ella's hairstyle.. or maybe.. i look just a lil' prettier. heh heh. =)

Yesterday was really a 'life-enlightenment' day for me..Well, maybe some times life is unexpected. The reason that y i'm typing out all these is because my collegues told me some touching stories
about their close ones.. and how they passed on. Like what the chinese ppl say: U may have e life but not e money, U may have e money but not the life.
People usually take things for granted, no matter what it is, love ones, friends, family.. and maybe their lives. Until the day that they noe that tomorrow will never come and thats when those people realise that they have too many things that they havent done, too many things they havent seen and too many things they regret for.
For me, i can say that at least till now i've never taken my friends, and loved for granted, and, from now, im not gonna take my family and life for granted. Because, if there's really a day where tomorrow never comes.. i know i've treasured what god have given me.

HEy blog,
hees. actually.. i have nothing new to update besides that jason and genevieve came over to my place today and next we went to wei tin's place.. haa!! so well, time passed real fast.. in another week time..CN Y's gonna be over.. so anyway ppl.. i'll be back again.!!

A whole day of an once in a lifetime event..

Hey people.. haa!! Guess whr am i on the 19 of feb?? I was at Minister's Lee house!! Believe it??!! hahas. well.. i get to go there because of my dad.. he's workinh under minister's wife.. so that's why..

Happy Valentine's Day..

Its been another year again.. Maybe u can say im abit pathetic. cause for the past 4 years of my secondary school life, valentine's day has never occured to me on celebrating with that someone i love. And today, once again.. im all alone. Im actually suppose to be at work right now.. but i deliberately took half day leave or never, as in.. i just told my collegue that i have some fam probs to settle to and i'll only be at work after 12. But the truth is.. i dont feel lyk going work.
Currently listening to the radio.. love songs go on and on and on.. haa!! Well.. Guess today will be the only day where i can hear 24 hours of full love songs anyway..
I wont rush into love.. Maybe someday.. sometime.. everyday will be my valentine's day..
To all couples, friends, Besties!!, sisters, bros out there: Happy valentine's day!
Love sometimes dont get a second chance, treasure the one that u love.

wOW..
so yeah, here i am again.. blogging on.Past 2 days was like nerve wrecking, until when i take my o'level results on the 9 feb.. den it was some wat lyk heaven.Although results was not very good, but lucky thing is i have a no. of choices to choose from. But, being the 'safe' sandra, i've decided to choose e safest course.. which is nursing. Well, maybe u'll think that nursing is so not me.. hees. but yeah, this tym round i'll listen to my heart. Because it says nursing.. anyway.. watever it is.. i just hope that things will go on fine from now on.. hees.. i've done it. atleast i noe i've accomplished the most important part of sec school life.
For the rest that have happen through out the 4 years.. it'll be my most loving memories.
The people who came to me and left me, some who stayed, and some.. are they going to stay beside me?? hmm.. i'll just live it to life. Aright here.. my secondary school life have officially come to an end. 4 years. its not easy going on through these years.. i've learnt so so much.. really. Love,friends, life.I'LL TREASURE ALL THAT. I met the 1 that i love the most, i met those whom i dote the most and also the ones who really stay on beside me..

As the clock ticks by, the truth will come to light. well, so yeah.. in another less then 20 hrs time.. results will be out. So people out there, all the best!!

i don noe if i look stupid in here.. but yea.. it was the day where all the senior dancers got together.. I didnt really got a clear view of Mrs Lim, but in any case, i still got a shot of her.

Today will be a day for me to treasure the most. Finally after 2 yrs, i get to meet Mrs Lim. Pretty as ever.. slim as ever. Except that she's a mother now. we didnt talk much thou, cos she has to rush home as her baby's grumbling.. So next, the rest of us went to have lunch.. but little did we realise that we'll all end up in Billy Bomper's.. with the big group of us, what do u expect?? Basically, u wont except anything but Noise!! With dance and drama combined, everything was like heaven. Haa!! had lots of fun in there and all kinds of craps came out.. Hmmm, words cant express how i feel but i really do treasure this day, maybe because after our examinations and all we never really had a chance to get together to talk.. and that is why they all make today really special.. but i left early with jason.. so yeah.. what happen next?? i dont know.. Guess thats all i have about today.. i wont be back till the nxt weekends i think.. i have to work u see.. so everybody.. take care!!!

haven been really noting down my feelings these few days cause i have to work.. was some kind of exhausted.. well, i guess there are still some feelings i still have to type. Met Gen downstairs my block just now. Some kinda coincidence?? hees. Yupps, i guess so.
Today was really some heart to heart talk with Gen.. We talked about love and life. I guess we both are in the same state.. as in both of us are waiting for the right person and the right true love. What i can say is that.. Yah, true love needs time i guess. Its not that i don believe in love again anymore.. but its more of the hurt that im afraid of. Once bitten, twice shy. So i guess this is how it works.

Once again, confused over feelings again.

I don noe what am i really feeling now. After the long talk with Gen.. some things just flashed through again. Its not that i've not gotten over it, but.. right now.. maybe the memories are still strong bahx. for now, its not only me cos in the picture, someone appeared. Maybe.. im not the one that is really right,i can tell that she has real hard feelings for u.
Don lie to urself anymore.. somethings just cant hide. Go for who u really want. If u'r happy, i guess she will be too.

Recent Pics..

I think my short's missing!!

Inside the toilet!!

This is how the inside of my office looks like..

This is how the outside of my office looks like. Cool rites! HAA!

new jobby!

I have a new job post.. and i'll be starting work tomorrow. Data entry clerk. So yaeh.. that's wat im going to do or suppose to do. Wondering how the work is gonna be like. Then again, thinking about how lucky i am to be breathing, kicking, running. All i can say is thank god for everything.You must be wondering why am i typing all these. Cause i just read a friend's journal and saw that some one close to her passed on.. Reading it just made me feel how lucky i am.. Just wanna tell people out there.. treasure all out there.. everything is all God's gift.

outing with Jas!

Hee! went outie with Jas on wed.. was fun, we get to get back the old times like old aunties. First, we went to taka to find jason, saw him working. Haa! wearing all black. Next, we went to Far East and went to find Val & Ching meei.. took some pictures..

I woke up early in the morning today.. i mean really really early. 4.30am!! you believe it?? i woke up even earlier then my sis. but.. den again, i went back to sleep unknowingly.. at abouot 10 plus den i woke up. haa! so yeah, will be going out with jasmine today.. so i'll take lotsa of pics den post it up. hopefully by this wkend bahx.. and yah.. maybe we could drop by taka to see jason.. since he's been complaining so MUCH!!
These days have been more peaceful.. at least i could have some peace. Besides the rain and all.. everything is kinda alright.. i actually like the rain when im not going out. Can stay at home and enjoy the really cooling breeze.. and what i hate most is.. the clothes cant dry! Anyway, the sun's shining bright today.. happy sunny day everyone!

nothing to do. so yeah,, upload some pics.

Gram's b-day pic update and cou's pic.

See these shoes?? haa! My new shoes, for new year.

pictures!!

Me!! in the rain..

its kinda on the wrong flip side.. but yeah.. hahas.. still can see lahx.




Gram's place.. its her birthday!!! o1o1o7..

12am sharp!! on 25 dec, in the chalet.. and if u notice.. i have 2 cakes infront of me. 3 actually.. but cut other one an hour ago..

my birthday!! was out with my cou's and my sis.. they celebrated for me!

Who's there??? Its jason!! im over at his grams place, for his birthday..

i was actually in the lorry.. haa! and then i took a pic of myself lahx, the cars behind may be looking at me.. but.. who cares!!

BLOGGING!!!!!!!!!!

now, im lyk kinda busy.. doing somme research for my sis. She's taking DnT lahx.. Weidr girl.

haa!! I'm now talking on the phone with jason, yah.. and blogging at the same time.LAter on, i'll be going out with him to taka to shop shop. Well, today's someone birthday.. yeah.. didnt wish him though.. maybe somethings i just cant get over afterall.. but anyway, i'll get back later!!

I heard this sentence from a chinese song: When a man tear's, he's twice as hurt as when he bleeds. Well, i find this sentence very meaningful though, so girls out there when a guy actually cry's for you... u know how much he's really hurt. But then again, nobody can control feelings.. if its really meant to be... somehow it'll just come back again. This is what i believe in. BE a good person.. cause, right in the end.. i don't think god will ill-treat someone who has a heart of gold. So then, if u really want things to be good, it should be easy.

generation disputes..

yeah yeah.. im back for updates again! Watching a korean show now.. VCD. Which star do you come from?? haa! yeah.. thats the tittle.. the show's not bad, try watching, im now at disc 9. And again.. whenever im here to update.. there'll always be something going on. Now, i have generation disputes!! Haa! sounds lyk.. Wat The!!??? yea.. generation as in.. aunts & aunts. Yah, aunts who are 30plus years older den me. Well, i don noe how should i put this, maybe should let the adults settle this themselves.. but.. Arggh!! Frustrating! okay, it goes lyk.. 1 aunt is trying to 'phsyco' me & my sis dat my another aunt is rubbish, no- real blood relationship, arrogant... etc etc. Haiz, i just wanna say, Hey!!! We are big enough to judge for ourselves.. and, my another aunt have been taking care of us since we were lyk 1 month!! SO,, just wanna let my aunt noe dat.. SHUT THE FUCK UP K?? u don have the right to say any remarks to them because they don owe u a living!

life lesson???

Back to updates again.. so yeah.. LIFE still goes on. I suggest u people to take life easy aite?? No matter when u guys grow up or anything, be strong in no matter what u guys do. Life experience has tell me that if get to work up and stressed out with wat u'r doing.. this may in the end land you in physical breakdown. Im not saying this for fun, because right now.. all that i've type.. it's all happening around me. Guess u noe who im talking about ready.. its my Mum! And yah.. i think she has depression and mentally she's not ok..
Enough saying about her.. hmmm.. went back to sch ytd with Gen and Jason, was actually suppose to go sentosa with Chu and the guys.. but.. THEIR ALL GUYS!! haa! its so unsafe to be the only girl there.. and so.. i was in school again. This time was some kinda different from e past few years.. maybe.. we were back in home clothes; and didnt have to study.. thats all.
Haa!! well, anyway.. was actually thinking through somethings ytd.. Love, Friends, Life.. and all. To say, the thing which actually came to me the most in 2006 was Love and friends.. Fell in love, fell out of friends, and realise who my true friends really were. But yeah.. hope 2007 will be another great year ahead.. Hey people!! U guys are great!!

pictures time!!

My beloved grand aunt, she took care of me ever since i was 1month.. so dat's y i love her the most!!


My lil' gang.. beside me is my sis..

In malaysia.. fairy windmail..

see them?? they are my precious darlings..

soloist~~ sandra!! pretty?? hahas.. don mind me... im always dat thick skin..

gugugaga!!

Today's the last day of my work. phew! can get some rest and im on the way to finding jobs again.. practically, i wanna do lotsa jobs to earn lots of money.. to prove to mum dat only by working den u'll get money, oso, i wanna tell her dat i have the ability to earn a living by my ownself NOW. bUT, the money dat i earn.. 3/4 of it will be put in my bank. to thicken up the volume of the $$ that previously my mum have been using.. see guys?? the money dat my mum is using is from my bank account! U noe why now i just hate her and everyhthing that she do. Well, this blog has all along been my online diary.. so.. its all my true feelings dat i've typed out. so what if i hate to the core. She's still my mum. i've come to learn dat hatered will only bring more hatered.. i'd rather get used to it den to be bothered by it.

okay.. dats e big chunk of my totally 'u don wanna have family life'.. hahas! the happy thing is i got a new phone today.. second hand to be exact.. it is still relatively new, in good condition.. passed down by my niece! =) ok.. get back later!!

munching ice!

I'm back.


Finally after 4 tiring and fucked up days. Yah... real fucked up. Especially yesterday!! well.. actually it's all about my mum again ..back to her 'mental' again.. she's jobless!! she's not being retrenched or anything.. she resigned!! and u know why she did dat?? just bcos she finds dat wat she's doing in her workplace is MEANINGLESS!

i mean... why do u care whether it is meaningful or anything.. but at least it is not something whr u do illegally or betray ur dignity or stuffs.. its just being a housekeeper!! hey.. ppl here lyk me.. work hard because i noe by working den i will get $$,, my own hard earned $$. okay.. so now im typing and munching ice at the same time.. hoping that if any of the gods' up there can use their heavenly labtop n look through my blog... and understand how i really feel. cos when my mum's jobless n short of cash.. she'll start screamimg and vent all her frustration on us.. as if we have no human rights. This will be a tym where my dad will start coming home late.. lyk 11 plus or 12 plus, bcos he too.. can't stand my mother.

so ppl.. this is what my family life is. so when i tell u dat i don feel lyk going home.. u noe what i mean.

but anyway, pics of me and my sista. this was in malaysia.. im in that glasses. haa! i love those glasses..






feel so lucky.. at least i have my lil' sis with me.

BLOOGIES UPDATIES!!

bleah bleah,, Pretty sandra is back. oww!! thick skin me. haa!! okies. i was in malaysia for 3 whole nights and 4 days.. had a total lotsa of fun there.. simply just shop, eat,shop, sleep?? yeah.. and not forgetting the wedding dinner lahx.If u say vivocity is big.. den i'll not agree. Cos over thr the shopping complex are 2X bigger?? yah ard there. Basically, when i was there.. i missed out Alan's and gen's birthday,, hahas. i didnt get presents for them too. OHH!! i just remembered.. i forgotten Jason's present too. hahas. Jason if u read this.. eh.. but don worry ,i'll get in s'pore den..

Alright, x'mas is coming. My birthday. i don noe if ppl actually enjoy x'mas.. but i totally love it. but.. i'll get older each x'mas. Can i say that im special??? hmmm.. maybe not that special.. but.. How many ppl on earth can actually have birthday's on x'mas?? hehes! well.. i just love 25 December. Hey Santa claus!!.. if u read my blog.. hehes. can i have my wish come true??

Totally exhausted!

Wow! started working for only lyk 4 days and im totally exhausted ready. hehes. but had a fun time in the airport though, get to experience the working life out there... total sales for the 4 days is only like 1000$$ plus plus. Not very good, our sales target is 3000$$ by the 18th of dec cos thats the last day of work.. heh. but i met all kinds of ppl out there and finally know the hard work it takes to earn every cent!

Job day!!

Today was the first day of work. hahas. yeah.. work. well.. basically im working as a sales promoter for SKll. didnt actually notice much about this product previously but today had a training with rachel, the co-ordinater, and realise the wonders that the products have. First day of work was a totally new experience. But the old sales ladies are some kinda bitchy.. hahas. i don give a damn about them anyway had my sales done to about $300++ today.. ha! not bad right. It's bought from a guy.. for his girlfriend. AWWw!! so sweet right. How i wish there's a guy who treat this well to me. Eh... but first things first, he must have all the conditions that i've listed in my previous entry. And i wonder if there would be a day if i really find a boyfriend.

Hmm.. maybe u can say that im totally obsessed with the show. wang zi bian qing wa. yah, that's right. im watching the show over again.. addicted to it now.Totally love it.
Heh heh heh. crazy over dat male lead.
i wish my husband was lyk him( in future)!! Perhaps, i will consider getting married if the perfect guy really exist on earth.
i wan him to be..:

• at least 180cm tall, 70kg.
• broad shoulders!!
• long legs.
• ABS!!!
• long fingers
• Rich!!

THis is just the outside of him dat i want, inside is the one dat totally counts. As long as he's not unfaithful and he must be responsible and really rich!! ..erm.. is this some sort of lyk expectations of my future to be husband?? hehes. yah. i think so. i believe that a man should possess this kind of inner beauty inside him, so looks don't really needa count. Talking about it, sometimes i really wish for a hand to be twice my hand with long and slender fingrs to hold on to my hand.. BTW.. my birthday's coming.. my birthday wish?? can i have a guy with all that i listed above?? hehes. if santa claus read my blog den maybe my wish will come true!

I'm really really sure now about my feelings. At least i can confirm now that i am free from all those love love stuffs. (For the time being...) right now, i just wanna find my job and start working!! SO I WONT STAY AT HOME, SLACK AND GROW FAT!! ermm..
and im afctually on a diet.. hahas.
But 1/2 hour ago i just ate a stick of ice-cream.. dat's when temptations come.. have to conquere them all!!!!! hahas. okay.. i'lll be back later.. maybe another 10 hours later to update more..
off to exercising now!!

thinking..

im actually watching a korean show now. sad one indeed. life can be so fragile.. i guess i know why god created dis emotion inside us called 'treasure'. i know how is it to lose someone u love to another world,, it hurts. but. within the times when they were still ard me. i treasured every second with them.. cos i noe dat at least when their gone, it won hurt so much.. well.. i don noe what got me to type all these.. i guess its the show and oso wat i read onlline just now.. someone's life journal. its not a he, but a she which i've read, close frens to say??
ok.. actually the thing goes lyk dis.

some point of tym last yr, i fallen for him. i thot e feelings wouldnt last. but till now.. its still in my heart. we were together for a short while.. and.. i was really happy to be with him. with all my heart, its only him. but oso.. at some point dis year i got to noe dat she oso has feelings for him>> it really strucked me. well.. so now, we'r not together anymore..even though still have feelings.. but i noe dat we could never be together again. right now, what i really hope dat is, if u 2 have feelings for each other, go ahead. u mat never noe dat it may last forever. with all my heart,.. dat's wat i truely wish for. i've let go.. and i know.. someone awaits me out thr.

i will be happy.

Exams are finally over!!! hahas. all over, right now, it's really e time to slack and have fun!

There's really something dirty hanging on out there.. it's getting kinda eeerie ready. But i have faith with myself,with god. I believe that things will turn out fine. It will go away.. yeah, but.. don harm it or do anything to it, it won't hurt you.
shall continue, actually was at xing's hse when i wrote e first half.. well.. was actually thinking now what and how will life be from tmr onwards. Getting a job with jas and maybe xing tmr at the changi airport, they have a job fair or stuffs lyk dat.
okay.. so.. i was actually looking through somebody's blog just now.. and actually know how *** life actually was. im actually wondering who dat person *** was missing.. is it him???

now.. more about my relationships update.. do i actually still like him?? yeah.. i actually still do.. afterall.. i once loved him. But i guess all these takes time. Really long time i guess. the thoughts of him just wouln't fade,, i think i know now what it really takes to miss someone badly. Really really badly. i know now dat some stuffs are going on with him... i silently hope dat he will really really be fine. i will pray. whats all for love thou?? i donnoe either.. but all these are parts and parcels of what we'r suppose to go through..

ok. todays math paper 2. i donnoe wat e hell im doing, cos ppl ard me are busy preparing when im actually here doodling with e com.. but well anyway, just hope i"ll do well for all of e papers.
well.. u noe. sometimes somethings are better of being left unknown den to noe it. i am actually wondering wat is going on btwn u guys.. but i somehow wish i don wanna noe anything.. phew!! maybe, things shld be it this way.. i wont noe anything den.. haa! yah,, it'll be better.. hehes. guess there's not much to update today just noting down somw of me feelings.. all e best ppl!! =)

wish me good luck!

ART PAPER'S TODAY!!

haa!! hope thins will turn out fine today. PHew!! struggling for the past few days and its finally done.
hope i'll finish it in time. 3 hours. it should be enough..

oohho..
didnt talk to mum for 2 whole days. i just really feel so sick! sick of all these..
thought dat maybe things will finally turn good after so many lessons.. but eventually.. it didnt. i don wanna care so much ready. i just wanna live my own life.