Hmm.. maybe u can say that im totally obsessed with the show. wang zi bian qing wa. yah, that's right. im watching the show over again.. addicted to it now.Totally love it.
Heh heh heh. crazy over dat male lead.
i wish my husband was lyk him( in future)!! Perhaps, i will consider getting married if the perfect guy really exist on earth.
i wan him to be..:

• at least 180cm tall, 70kg.
• broad shoulders!!
• long legs.
• ABS!!!
• long fingers
• Rich!!

THis is just the outside of him dat i want, inside is the one dat totally counts. As long as he's not unfaithful and he must be responsible and really rich!! ..erm.. is this some sort of lyk expectations of my future to be husband?? hehes. yah. i think so. i believe that a man should possess this kind of inner beauty inside him, so looks don't really needa count. Talking about it, sometimes i really wish for a hand to be twice my hand with long and slender fingrs to hold on to my hand.. BTW.. my birthday's coming.. my birthday wish?? can i have a guy with all that i listed above?? hehes. if santa claus read my blog den maybe my wish will come true!

I'm really really sure now about my feelings. At least i can confirm now that i am free from all those love love stuffs. (For the time being...) right now, i just wanna find my job and start working!! SO I WONT STAY AT HOME, SLACK AND GROW FAT!! ermm..
and im afctually on a diet.. hahas.
But 1/2 hour ago i just ate a stick of ice-cream.. dat's when temptations come.. have to conquere them all!!!!! hahas. okay.. i'lll be back later.. maybe another 10 hours later to update more..
off to exercising now!!

thinking..

im actually watching a korean show now. sad one indeed. life can be so fragile.. i guess i know why god created dis emotion inside us called 'treasure'. i know how is it to lose someone u love to another world,, it hurts. but. within the times when they were still ard me. i treasured every second with them.. cos i noe dat at least when their gone, it won hurt so much.. well.. i don noe what got me to type all these.. i guess its the show and oso wat i read onlline just now.. someone's life journal. its not a he, but a she which i've read, close frens to say??
ok.. actually the thing goes lyk dis.

some point of tym last yr, i fallen for him. i thot e feelings wouldnt last. but till now.. its still in my heart. we were together for a short while.. and.. i was really happy to be with him. with all my heart, its only him. but oso.. at some point dis year i got to noe dat she oso has feelings for him>> it really strucked me. well.. so now, we'r not together anymore..even though still have feelings.. but i noe dat we could never be together again. right now, what i really hope dat is, if u 2 have feelings for each other, go ahead. u mat never noe dat it may last forever. with all my heart,.. dat's wat i truely wish for. i've let go.. and i know.. someone awaits me out thr.

i will be happy.

Exams are finally over!!! hahas. all over, right now, it's really e time to slack and have fun!

There's really something dirty hanging on out there.. it's getting kinda eeerie ready. But i have faith with myself,with god. I believe that things will turn out fine. It will go away.. yeah, but.. don harm it or do anything to it, it won't hurt you.
shall continue, actually was at xing's hse when i wrote e first half.. well.. was actually thinking now what and how will life be from tmr onwards. Getting a job with jas and maybe xing tmr at the changi airport, they have a job fair or stuffs lyk dat.
okay.. so.. i was actually looking through somebody's blog just now.. and actually know how *** life actually was. im actually wondering who dat person *** was missing.. is it him???

now.. more about my relationships update.. do i actually still like him?? yeah.. i actually still do.. afterall.. i once loved him. But i guess all these takes time. Really long time i guess. the thoughts of him just wouln't fade,, i think i know now what it really takes to miss someone badly. Really really badly. i know now dat some stuffs are going on with him... i silently hope dat he will really really be fine. i will pray. whats all for love thou?? i donnoe either.. but all these are parts and parcels of what we'r suppose to go through..

ok. todays math paper 2. i donnoe wat e hell im doing, cos ppl ard me are busy preparing when im actually here doodling with e com.. but well anyway, just hope i"ll do well for all of e papers.
well.. u noe. sometimes somethings are better of being left unknown den to noe it. i am actually wondering wat is going on btwn u guys.. but i somehow wish i don wanna noe anything.. phew!! maybe, things shld be it this way.. i wont noe anything den.. haa! yah,, it'll be better.. hehes. guess there's not much to update today just noting down somw of me feelings.. all e best ppl!! =)

wish me good luck!

ART PAPER'S TODAY!!

haa!! hope thins will turn out fine today. PHew!! struggling for the past few days and its finally done.
hope i'll finish it in time. 3 hours. it should be enough..

oohho..
didnt talk to mum for 2 whole days. i just really feel so sick! sick of all these..
thought dat maybe things will finally turn good after so many lessons.. but eventually.. it didnt. i don wanna care so much ready. i just wanna live my own life.